Texting is fingered speech. Now we can write the way we talk.

A lot of us, especially teenagers like me, text a lot, sometimes a little too much to be honest. Just like the quote above, texting is indeed the "fingered speech" and we do text the way we talk. Since we text the way we talk, does texting really affect our knowledge in the English Language?

I admit that I am not that fond of texting but I do text people too. I have encountered a lot of text messaging ways of different people. A lot of people really like to make the words in their texts shorter. They tend to cut out almost all of the vowels of the word. I do the same too, but I love to keep the words in their right spelling most of time, except when I am in a rush or when I am too lazy to type. 

With that, I believe that texting doesn't really affect my knowledge in the English Language. I am sometimes confused with some spelling of the words but that is just normal for me. I am a very forgetful person just so you know. Even when I text, there has never been a time that I am unsure of the message that I sent to someone. So to say that texting affects the knowledge in the English Language is a no no for me. 

100% Worth It

Sem Break. . . The two words that is music to the ears of every student.

Sem Break. . . The two words the students love after summer and Christmas break.

Sem Break. . . The two words that meant lazying around.

Sem Break. . . The two words that meant no school for more than a week.

Sem Break. . . The two words that meant VACATION and FOOD.

I just had my Sem Break. Just like what I defined it, all I did was being lazy all day and all night. It was like freedom for me. It's those couple of days where I don't have to worry about the homeworks and the tests. It's those days where I can just sit around all day watching korean dramas and k-pop idols. Sem Break is like a short term vacation.

I didn't really go out that much. We didn't go shopping, we didn't watch movies in the cinema, we didn't go anywhere fun but that's fine with me. Just being able to lay around and watch dramas on my phone is enough to make me happy during the whole Sem Break. Other than watching dramas and crying over them, I also watched my favorite K-pop idols. I was really happy that I was able to catch up with all these Korean things because school made me so busy that I never really had the time to watch them so am really glad that we had this Sem Break.

When I am not watching dramas, I am eating. I just love eating. I ate lots of sweets during the Sem Break from chocolates to cupcakes. I also ate desserts like the leche flan and ice cream. Eating is one of my guilty pleasures. I am not suppose to eat a lot because I will get fat but I just can't help eating when all of those food are set out in front of me waiting to be eaten. 

To sum the whole thing up I was really happy that were given the Sem Break. I really want to thank those people who have made this possible. It was really fun. Having those days with no school surely is a hundred percent worth it!

1 Word, Thousands of Emotions

Love. . .

They say love is what we feel when we are totally captivated by a person

They say love makes us stupid

They say love makes us feel something surreal.

Now I wonder,

“What is love for me?”

Well, let me tell you my definition of love through this story.

          There was a boy and a girl. The boy was totally captivated by the beautiful girl. It was indeed love at first sight. The boy did everything to capture the girl’s heart. He wrote her love letters, brought her presents, and last but not the least, the one in every girls’ dream, he serenaded her. He serenaded her every night. He sang to her sweetly while playing his guitar. He brought her chocolates after he got his payment from work. He wrote her letters that are full of sincerity and sweetness from deep within his heart. He was a very sweet boy. Even though the boy was like that the girl never gave any hints of feeling the same way. She just ignored him every time. The boy felt like giving up but he never did. Still, he wrote her letters, brought her presents and serenaded her. He courted her for two whole years. He never gave up and continued everything and the girl finally gave him her yes.

          The boy didn’t know that every time he serenaded the girl, she was feeling all giddy inside. He didn’t know that every time he brought her presents she would hide it in her drawer to keep it forever. He didn’t know how happy she is every time he wrote her letters that are filled with his love. She never showed her emotions before. She wanted to see how true he would be. She wanted to see if he really was willing to wait. She was definitely impressed and moved when he told her that it is alright if she doesn’t love him back; what’s important is that he is able to show her he loves her.

          After giving him her “yes” they dated for three years. They got married after that and lived happily. But them the boy was taken away too early. But still the girl stood beside his hospital bed until his very last breath.

That is what love is like for me. What the boy showed from the very beginning is pure love. The girl showed pure love too.

Love is being able to show your true feelings to that person without asking for anything in return. It is being able to be with that person day by day without getting tired of what they can give you. Love is being able to let go. Love is being happy of his or her happiness.

I might have thought that I have been in love, but in reality I never was. I am not yet in love with someone. Maybe it is close to that but it is not yet love. Yes I have felt butterflies in my stomach and the feel of being stabbed in the heart but I don’t think that it is purely from love.

I am still waiting for that guy who would sweep me off my feet. I am still waiting for that guy who would serenade me and write me love letters. I am waiting for that guy who would love me for me and accept for who I am. 

Superhuman

“The real heroes are the librarians and teachers who at no small risk to themselves refuse to lie down and play dead for censors.” 

What is a teacher? For me, a teacher is a person who sees you every weekday an hour or two. A teacher is someone who teaches you lessons. A teacher is someone who believes in you, encourages you and loves you. A teacher is our modern day hero. 

Do you know how hard it is to be a teacher? Well to be honest, I myself don't really know how hard being a teacher can be but I somehow have an idea. Have you ever taught someone, like with their homework or something? I was just wondering because I have. Whenever I teach my siblings or help them with their homework, I get so frustrated with them whenever they are too slow on getting the lesson. That is just me teaching a child or two, but can you imagine teaching 30-50 of them all at once? See how frustrating that can be? That is how hard being a teacher can be. That is what they go through everyday with us being their students.

My mom is a teacher in the USA so she has lots of friends who are also teachers there. I tend to be nosy whenever they have these serious talks. Sometimes, a teacher who is a friend of my mom will complain and say something like

"Hindi ko na kaya to! Sobrang hirap na! Araw-araw nalang nila akong binibigyan ng sakit ng ulo. Hindi nakikinig. Sumasagot pa! Suko na ko!"

While sometimes, that friend of my mom will just break down and cry because of too much stress from school and being homesick added to that stress. It indeed is really hard to be a teacher.

We as students have to also understand our teachers just like how they are understanding to us. We have to work together to build up that bond and to learn from each other. I know that there are times when we can't seem to understand our teachers and their moods. I know that sometimes they are too fast when they teach a new lesson. I know that there are times when they just randomly get moody with us and sometimes they start raising their voices but we have to understand them. They are people like us. They have problems too. They have a family outside of the school too. They have greater responsibilities than us so we have to understand them. 

Since it is the Teacher's day, let us all take this moment and thank our teachers. The teachers who loves us and believes in us. Thank you teachers for being understanding. Thank you all for being patient enough and not giving up on us. Thank you for sharing your life stories. Thank you for inspiring us all. Thank you for being our second moms and dads. Thank you for being there. Thank you for being a part of our lives. Though a million thank yous wouldn't be enough, I still thank you for everything.

If I was asked to define a teacher, a million words would come to my mind. Words from intelligent to inspiring would come to my mind. A teacher is indeed inspiring. A teacher is like hero that saves us from the wrongs in this world. A teacher is someone who speaks the truth.So basically for me, a teacher is a superhuman.

"The dream begins with a teacher who believes in you, who tugs and pushes and leads you to the next plateau, sometimes poking you with a sharp stick called 'truth'."

Beyond Reality

On a cold winter night, Juliet is talking to herself on the balcony of their house. She is confused about her feelings towards Romeo, her best friend. She is asking herself if what she feels is true love or not. Romeo, unseen by Juliet, is hiding behind the bushes of the garden and overhears everything she is saying. Romeo is actually in love with Juliet ever since they met and he didn't have the confidence to express his feelings. But after hearing Juliet's true feelings, he finally decided to ask her hand in marriage. Romeo shows himself to Juliet and asked her to marry him. After hearing this shocking revelation, Juliet's eyes were filled with tears of joy. Juliet says yes and Romeo was overjoyed. Romeo put the diamond ring given   by his mother to him. This ring was preserved and given from his ancestors and now to him by his mother, saying that it should be passed to whoever he will marry. Their wedding was planned to take place in Italy. They planned the wedding before they board their ship to Rome. On their way to the Verona Royal florist, they came across the soothsayer. They were astonished by the shocking news that the soothsayer said. They were warned to beware of the Ides of March. The couple was so afraid for they planned the wedding to take place on the 17th of March and they will board their ship on the 14th of March. They thought of their plan all over again. The Montagues and Capulets suggested to postpone the wedding but the couple believed that the warning of the soothsayer is only brought about by superstitious beliefs. On the 14th of March, the couple boarded their ship to Rome.

On board the ship are Romeo and Juliet’s guests. They are all well known personalities from various allied kingdoms. From the kingdom of Denmark, Hamlet, from the Kingdom of Rome, Julius Caesar, Cassius, and Brutus, from the Kingdom of Scotland, Macbeth, from the Kingdom of Syracuse, Antipholus and Dromio, from the Kingdom of Ephesus, Antipholus and Dromio, from the Kingdom of Athens, Lysander, Demetrius, Helena, and Hermia, and from the Kingdom of Messina, Beatrice and Benedick. At midnight, everybody was having the time of their life when Beatrice and Benedick suddenly notice that the Antipholus and Dromio of Syracuse and the Antipholus and Dromio of Ephesus are actually twins. The mischievous Benedick told Beatrice that they should play a prank on them. Beatrice agreed and commenced their plan. Beatrice flirted with Antipholus of Syracuse and told him to ask Dromio of Syracuse to fetch her a glass of water. Benedick told Antipholus of Ephesus that he will give him a treasure chest full of gold if he gives him a piece of cake. Antipholus of Ephesus easily believes this and told Dromio of Ephesus to get him a piece of cake. When both Dromio got what their master wanted, Benedick and Beatrice switched the places of the two Antipholus. Dromio of Ephesus gave the cake to Antipholus of Syracuse and Dromio of Syracuse gave the glass of water to Antipholus of Ephesus. Both Antipholus got mad because they thought that their servants were mocking them. The 2 pairs of twins chased each other all over the ship. Dromio of Syracuse accidentally trips on the floor and accidentally pushes Antipholus of Ephesus towards the captain of the ship. As the captain falls, he accidentally stirred the ship towards an iceberg and caused the ship to sink. Everybody fell overboard except for the Capulets, Beatrice, Benedick, Antipholus and Dromio of Syracuse, Antipholus and Dromio of Ephesus because they were able to get on the lifeboats along with the crew of the ship.

After the dreadful shipwreck on March 15 (based on the soothsayer’s Ides of March), all the guests of Romeo and Juliet were drifted upon a mystical island which was then believed to have superstitious beings. Auspiciously, they were able to prosper in the barren island a few days right after the shipwreck. There they came across with Oberon and Titania, the mysterious king and queen of the fairies, together with Helena, their gorgeous princess and Puck, their relentless aide. Puck has this potential to mess up a relationship between two lovers simply by squirting a mystical juice to the eye of either the guy or lady once they were asleep, so that when they woke up, they won’t be together again as if they were not acquainted with each other. Prior to the abhorrence of Capulet and Lady Capulet to Romeo, Capulet ordered Puck to squirt the mystical juice to the eye of Romeo so that he could not be acquainted with Juliet to any further extent. Lucky for them, Puck was able to do so. Meanwhile, Helena was in love with Demetrius, a guy whose love interest is Hermia. Helena has no other choice but to order Puck to squirt his mystical juice to Demetrius so that he will be falling in love with her. At the same time, Egeus, a mighty blacksmith of the island, was also disgusted with Lysander, whom his daughter Hermia loves so much. So Puck was then ordered to do the same like what the Capulets and Helena ordered him before, and he was successful in doing such.

From then on, perplexity between three couples had started. Romeo was now in love with Hermia; Demetrius was stunned by the lovely Helena; and Lysander has a deep adoration to Juliet. Thus, Helena was successful with her plan. Upon having Demetrius in her life, Helena pretended to have been pregnant to him (but actually, this is not true). To his delight, Demetrius ordered his servants to get everything ready for their daughter. 

Almost a year had gone by; still Helena seemed not to be pregnant. Upon knowing the truth that Helena was not actually pregnant, Demetrius drove away Helena from his mighty realm, leaving her outside stumbled upon the shimmering hallway. Demetrius, having disgusted with what he knew, started to look for his first love interest which is Hermia. He searched every part of the barren island; day and night he screeched Hermia’s name, but after a month of incessant search, he could not find Hermia any longer. And according to what he had heard from the adjacent realm, Hermia was currently the queen of Verona in Italy with his husband Romeo. This put himself into suicide.

On the other hand, while the prosperity continues to stretch throughout the island, they decided to have a leader to be elected in order to maintain the peace and order of the newly-occupied island. Out of several aspirants, Julius Caesar has been chosen to rule the island. He overpowered several aspirants, including Brutus and Cassius. Resentful and envious with what has transpired, Brutus and Cassius reunited to topple the leadership of Julius Caesar. They began spreading rumor about Julius Caesar: a rumor that would put his leadership and even his life to an end.
Hamlet who was elected as one of the senators to complete the panel of senators has his father, Alonso executed by a group of armed men after a senate hearing in Naples (since his dad was once a senator, too). The suspects are still anonymous up to date; this gave Brutus and Cassius the idea to point Julius Caesar as the prime suspect. 

Without knowing by Caesar, Brutus and Cassius are already spreading rumors throughout the citizenry of the island about the “execution” of Alonso, which is all a hoax. All was easily convinced since Caesar was once known to be a powerful yet ruthless executioner leader of Mantua. He immediately put convicts into death without prior hearings and court proceedings. 
Upon hearing the rumors, Hamlet had this sudden outburst of anger to Julius Caesar. But since he was a senator and a dignified statesman, he cannot carry out his plan of Caesar’s assassination so as not to besmirch his reputation. Without any hesitation on his part, he ordered Macbeth, his fellow camp-de-aide to execute Caesar in a Senate hearing. 

Few days after, Prospero, a faithful and loyal follower of Alonso who got stranded in the island after Alonso's assassination, heard the surreptitious plan of Caesar’s assassination. On the day of assassination, Prospero tried to avert the plan, saying that he’ll be stating the golden truth about Alonso's death. Hamlet, trying not to besmirch his reputation, decided to bring the plan of assassination an end, since according to him, all was just a rumor and there is no valid evidence to verify that Caesar assassinated his father before. Prospero was relieved and he told Hamlet the truth behind his father's death. According to Prospero, Alonso died when they were on their way home from the Senate hearing in Naples. They were riding their ship when suddenly pirates came aboard and tried to steal their ship. Alonso protected all his men and drove all the pirates away but Alonso didn't notice that one of the pirates stayed behind and stabbed him on the chest. Prospero killed this pirate and Alonso died in his arms. After a few hours, a raging storm came and the ship sunk. Prospero got stranded in the island and was the only survivor from the tragedy that occurred.

Meanwhile, on the mighty realm of Demetrius, Helena was stacked and still wondering what happened to Demetrius. She then ordered her servants to search for Demetrius. After few days of searching, they found Demetrius’ body and saw a knife which he used to stab himself. Upon knowing the news her servants reported to her, Helena ran in the hallway. She then stopped at the fountain and tears kept falling in her eyes. Day and nights had passed yet she is still crying and not eating. Her servants are worried for her condition. By this, her servants decided to send a letter to Romeo, Lysander, Hermia and Juliet. The letter is about the condition of Helena that her servants thought that will surely help to improve her condition. The two pairs of lovers; Lysander and Juliet, Romeo and Hermia came. They were shocked for they saw Helena crying then laughing. In short, she’s out of her mind and now she’s crazy. Her servants tell the whole story of what had happened to Helena. They said that Helena is blaming herself because if she didn’t pretend to be pregnant then Demetrius will not be disappointed and will not find Hermia in the barren island, resulting for him to stab himself after knowing the dreadful news. Hermia was shocked why Demetrius wanted to find her. She ran to Helena’s bedroom.

In Helena’s bedroom, Hermia heard her singing a song. The song is about her act of ordering Puck to pour mystical juice to Demetrius’ eyes. Hermia, upon hearing the Helena singing, called Romeo, Lysander and Juliet. They began to wonder who is Puck and what the meaning of the mystical juice is. They’re mind are full of questions, so for them to satisfy their curiosity and to find all the happenings behind this, they went back to the barren island. There, they searched and searched. Until one night, they were so tired and hungry and wanted to have rest. Then, they heard someone coming. They saw Julius and Prospero. They immediately asked them for help. They asked if they knew Puck. Prospero said that Puck is just beside them. The two pairs of lovers were shocked. They don’t know that Puck is just playing around them. As they started to chase Puck, Juliet tripped at Romeo’s foot. A diamond ring fell from Juliet’s pocket in her dress. There, she suddenly remembered his love for Romeo. She remembered that Romeo is the one who gave that ring. After she remembered and will now tell it to Romeo, Prospero suddenly casted a spell and the lovers fell asleep. Prospero then ordered Puck to bring back the true feelings of the lovers. Puck poured the mystical juice to their eyelids. Upon waking up, everything is back to normal again. Romeo is madly inloved to Juliet again, same as Lysander to Hermia. They immediately went to Helena and found her asleep. The lovers heard a sound saying” wake up, wake up”.

The lovers closed their eyes and opened it again. They found themselves in the ship safe and secured. They were shocked for Demetrius is alive and now fell inlove with Helena. Then, they discovered that it was just a dream; a bad dream yet to be remembered. That day, they reached the shore of one of Italy’s beaches. A triple wedding occurred with the other boards of the ship as their guests. Then, they lived happily ever after.

Beneath is Where the Truth Lies

"Fair is Foul, and Foul is Fair"

Those were the seven words the witches chanted in the dusty air. The words that project lots of meanings. The meaning of the paradox depends on the person reading it for it means lots of things. It affected me a lot as a person because for me, it speaks the whole truth about life. Nothing is ever fair in this world of ours. We tend to judge immediately not knowing that there is beauty underneath an unpleasant surface. We always jump into conclusions.

I genuinely think and believe that all of us judge each other or have judged people at some point in our lives. We just can't help it. People are just like the products that we buy. We tend to ignore those that are not signature made not knowing that they are so much more than what we think they are. We tend to ignore those that are "not our taste". 

If you were given two gifts of the same weight and height, one wrapped neatly with beautiful patterns all over it, and one that was wrapped so ugly that it looked like the wrapper were just a bunch of crumpled newspapers patched together, which one would you choose? The pretty one, right? You chose the pretty one because it is pretty not knowing that a bunch of rats were in it while the other gift has chocolates and nice things in it. That situation is just like how we are with people. We tend to choose the better looking ones thinking that they are all nice and lovely when the reality is that some of them have the ugliest personalities. We all tend to go with them anyway because they look nice anyway. You may say that you have never done such but you know deep inside that you have. 

We should never judge immediately because we don't know the truth. We just assume that we know the truth about a person. We should stop jumping into ridiculous conclusions without asking first. We always look at the outside not knowing that those fairest are the ones that are foul and those who seem foul are the fairest ones. . We always believe the thousands of lies on the cover not knowing beneath is where the truth lies.

The Best Part

William Shakespeare has written a lot of tremendous plays and A Midsummer Night's Dream is one of them. This play made me feel like I was on a roller coaster. It was unpredictable yet fun. Just like any other plays that Shakespeare has written, A Midsummer Night's Dream has a plot with the Exposition up to the Resolution.

It is my duty to find out what the most exciting part of the play is, the climax.

The CLIMAX of the story is:

The point of greatest intensity or force in an ascending series or progression; a culmination

Given that, in my opinion, Act III Scene II-III is where the climax is.

Act III Scene II-III is where Lysander was accidentally given the love potion that was supposed to be for Demetrius. Demetrius was also given a potion of his own. The love potions made both men fall head over heels in love with Helena. This is where the drama starts. Hermia felt insecure because both men used to be in love with her but they are now treating her coldly. Helena can't seem to grasp the sudden turn of events. The act is all about the four lovers and how they are towards each other.

This part is the most exciting part of all because this is where all the drama happened. It was really unexpected and the scene made me feel anxious.

Way To Happiness

"Forgiveness is not always easy. At times, it feels more painful than the wound we suffered, to forgive the one that inflicted it. And yet, there is no peace without forgiveness. " - Marianne Williamson

Could you ever forgive that someone who has done the UNTHINKABLE to you? Would you ever forgive that someone who gave you FALSE HOPES? Will you ever forgive the one who SHATTERED YOUR HEART into tiny pieces like it was some kind of unwanted piece of glass? Would you ever forgive someone who made you look like a FOOL? Should those people be forgiven? Can you handle the thoughts of "what if I forgave him/her" in your head? Are you going to be the one who is going to forgive and just forget?

I have had a lot of problems in my life, from really little ones to those problems that you wouldn't even think  I had. I have had love problems, family problems, friend problems, and other types of problems. I even heard a friend I considered as my best friend say unacceptable things about me behind my back. I was a mess after that but I acted like I heard nothing. I also had someone who led me on and acted like he had feelings for me when there really was nothing. I was really a mess after that but I also acted like it was nothing. Those problems hurt me so much that I felt like my heart was being stabbed with invisible needles hurting me unexpectedly. I have forgiven those people who did those things to me and I am really trying to forget those problems. Those are all in the past now and we can never change what happened.

But, there is a certain problem that I can never forget. It is that problem that I can never share with anyone, not on this blog,  not even with my mother. It is like a dirty little secret I am trying to hide from everyone. It is a problem I've been trying to run away from for the past couple of years in my life. I thought I have forgiven the one who has done wrong, but never was I so wrong. I have never forgiven and I have never forgotten. It always comes back. 

After thinking about it, I realized that the reason why it always comes back is that I have never forgiven and I have never forgotten. I have forgiven the other people that gave me minor problems but I ran away from that one problem and now it is eating me up inside. I really want to move on and be happy with my life but the problem is holding me back. It is like I am tied to metallic chain on a wall and I can't move. I don't even know how to start forgiving but I know one thing, I have to forgive to move on and to find happiness in life. 

Whatever the problem is or no matter how painful the wound given to us by someone is, we have to forgive them. We have to be the strong people who can forgive. Nobody is perfect, everybody makes mistakes just like how we, ourselves, make mistakes. If we can never forgive, then how are the people going to forgive us? 

Now, I will be that someone who could forgive the one who has done the UNTHINKABLE to me. I would forgive that someone who gave me FALSE HOPES. I will forgive the one who has SHATTERED MY HEART into tiny pieces like it was some kind of unwanted piece of glass. I would forgive the one who made me look like a FOOL. I should forgive those people because I can never handle the thoughts of "what if I forgave him/her" in my head anymore. I am going to be the one who is going to FORGIVE and FORGET. It is because I want to move on and start my journey on the way to my happiness. 

Smart or Sporty? Choose One.

Academically Inclined Student

Pros:

• High grades
• Proud parents
• People will look up to you
• People will treat you nicely
• Better vocabulary
• Fast in solving problems

Cons:

• Not good in sports
• Introvert
• Sometimes gets bullied 
• High expectations
• Gain haters

Sporty Student

Pros:

• Good in sports
• Healthy body
• Fit
• Proud parents
• Popular/Famous
• People will treat you nicely/ idolize you

Cons:

• Low grades
• People will ask you to study hard
• Popular
• Gain haters

If I was given a chance to choose if I would rather be an academically inclined student or a sporty student, I would rather be the so-called nerd than the MVP. The reason is very simple. We would always use our knowledge, our intelligence. There will be a time in our life wherein the only thing that we have is our knowledge. 

Having that great ability in sports is useless when a student is in a Mathematics, or an English class. Even if, let's say a person is the god in playing a certain sport, when that person gets old, he wouldn't be able to play the sport anymore. He wouldn't be that popular anymore. He will not be able to do what he was doing his whole life anymore. In the end, it would all be nothing. 

When a person is intelligent, there would be better jobs, better pay, better everything. When they get old, they will be able to use that intelligence to teach their grandchildren. I think that everything would be better if a person is academically inclined. It is because our knowledge, our intelligence, is our only treasure. It is the only possession of an individual that no one can ever steal or imitate. It is the treasure that someone can be proud of.

A Talk with Him

I sat there in my living room and watched TV

As I watch, I can no longer see the quarry

I saw the hungry flood eating up everything

Everything it passes by leaving them nothing

I sit here in room after watching TV

Thinking about the houses that were left empty

The sadness, the grief, the emptiness in their eyes

The way they lay there as if they're going to cry

Lord did you also witness the things that I have watched?

Did you see how they looked so helpless and scratched?

Did you also see the pain shining through their eyes?

Have you seen how badly they want to stop the crying sky?

Lord in behalf of those in need I pray to you

Please make them calm and safe with that caress of you

Please go into their weakened heart to give them hope

Make them believe again and hold onto the rope

We are sorry for our wrong doings in the past

To never do it again is really a must

We are sorry if we have disappointed you 

We really are sorry for making you feel blue

I hope that you wouldn't let all of them down

Their faith on you is what keeps them from falling down

I hope that you would hear my prayer for the people

And help them all eat again on their own table

I thank you for keeping my family safe and sound

Away from the roar of the raging storm and clouds

Though it makes me feel guilty, I will still thank you

For all of the blessings and the safety from you

I know that you love all of the people bad or good

You won't leave them, you'll help them. I know that you would.

Thank you for listening to my prayer and I hope

That it was helpful to share my faith and my hope.

Ganito Ka Rin Ba Mag-English?!

ORIGINAL LETTER

October 1996,

To Marije,

I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you why? Why? What reason can you think about but you’re very fat body. I thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later I’m realize that he really can’t not beared or stomached to be with you anymore because at first, Dennis say he could not stand you’re habit of making pakialam all his walks [lakad] and always calling to their house what he go home or this or that.

And then he say he get ashame to met either in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you’re very very, very fat body. But you hate it. Thought your the most preetiest girls he knows about. What do you think you are “Beautiful Girl” of Jose Marie Chan? Even you are beautiful face (to your think) you do not have the right to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because I’m never call you names either in the front of Dennis or in the backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, I don’t have any other choice but to call you other different name to. Like you are a PIG, FAT, OBESSED, OVERWIGHT, AND UGLY SHAPE girl. Shame to you’re body that is to a BUDING.

You can’t not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because I am the more sexier than you when you look to us in the mirror. I’m repeat again that you are like Ike Lozada when she is a girl.

Love,
The Sexiest Girl of D.M.

P.S. You say that I’m the bad breathe but who is Dennis want to kissed. Me or you? You or me? And the final is me. There you go.

CORRECTIONS

October 1996,

To Marije,

I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you why? Why? What reason can you think about but you’re very fat body. I thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later I’m realize that he really can’t not beared or stomached to be with you anymore because at first, Dennis say he could not stand you’re habit of making pakialam all his walks [lakad] and always calling to their house what he go home or this or that.

And then he say he get ashame to met either in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you’re very very, very fat body. But you hate it. Thought your the most preetiest girls he knows about. What do you think you are “Beautiful Girl” of Jose Marie Chan? Even you are beautiful face (to your think) you do not have the right to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because I’m never call you names either in the front of Dennis or in the backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, I don’t have any other choice but to call you other different name to. Like you are a PIG, FAT, OBESSED, OVERWIGHT, AND UGLY SHAPE girl. Shame to you’re body that is to a BUDING.

You can’t not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because I am the more sexier than you when you look to us in the mirror. I’m repeat again that you are like Ike Lozada when she is a girl.

Love,
The Sexiest Girl of D.M.

P.S. You say that I’m the bad breathe but who is Dennis want to kissed. Me or you? You or me? And the final is me. There you go.

EDITED

October 1996,

To Marije,

I am not surprised or wondering why Dennis left you. Why? What other reasons can you think of aside from your very fat body? I thought that Dennis only used me as his toy before. But sooner or later I realized that he can't really bear to be with you anymore because Dennis could not stand your habit of meddling into his business and always calling their house to know if he went home or this and that.

Then he said that he gets ashamed to meet you whether it is in school or with his family. He also asks you to exercise your very very very fat body but you hate exercising. You think you're the prettiest girl he know? You think that you are like the "Beautiful Girl" by Jose Mari Chan? Well, even though you have a beautiful face (in your mind) you do not have the right to call me whatever you want. Don't call me names to insult me because I never called you names in front of Dennis or behind his back. But you started to call me names so I don't have any other choice but to return the favor. You are a PIG, you're FAT, OBESE, OVERWEIGHT and an UGLY SHAPED girl. Shame on you for having a body similar to Buddha's.

You can't blame Dennis for exchanging you for me because I am much sexier than you when you look at the two of us in a mirror. I'll repeat that you look like the girl version of Ike Lozada.

Love,

The Sexiest Girl of D.M.

P.S. You say that I have bad breath? Who does Dennis want to kiss more? Me or you? The answer is me. There you go.

Fun

When I first found out that we had blogging for our informal theme, I had lots of worries. The idea made me scared, terrified even. I am not very good at expressing myself through writings. I am more of a talk person. "How am I going do this, write that, make them feel that?".  Those were the thoughts that ran through my mind. I didn't know what to do, I didn't have even a single idea on how to blog. I was clueless.

We had to make our blogs. We had to design them, make it our own. I had a lot of fun customizing my blog. I even named it "Dolce Vita" which means sweet life. I named it that because I felt that my blog can be a passage or a door to those soon to be readers to peek into my life. I believe that blogging can be a type of a conversation. I was thrilled. I gave out lots of efforts for my blog.

When the first informal theme was given, the one about the heroes, I didn't know how to start. I didn't want to write my mom or my dad because it is obvious that the parents are the heroes of their every child. I wanted to write something unusual but still has the idea of how parents are there as our heroes. 

Then the second title for the blog was given. I loved the theme. It was about our fathers since father's day was near. I had a lot of fun talking about my father in my blog. I am a daddy's girl so the opportunity to talk about my father made me really excited. I was really happy. I had a lot of fun blogging. The piece that I made for my father is my favorite post of all. 

From then on, I came to like blogging little by little. Now, I love blogging. I had no idea that blogging could be so fun. It was like a new experience for me. Blogging takes me to a whole other dimension I have never been to. It was an experience I will never forget. It is all thanks to our English Class. Without the informal theme for our class, I don't think I would be able to experience blogging at all. I am glad that our informal theme is through blogging.

A Hundred and Eighty Degrees

It was a very simple day, just like any other day. I didn't know what to expect and I didn't know what would happen. I was not expecting anything for I knew that it was just an ordinary day in my life. In the back of my mind everything was fine. I didn't know what was coming for me, until that happened. It happened too fast, like a blur. It was like taking a nap and when I woke up from my brief sleep, my life has been turned a hundred and eighty degrees.

After being woken up by my parents, I got ready for school. I ate my breakfast and did my morning rituals. I walked to the bus stop with my dad. I kissed his cheek just like what I always do before getting on the school bus. It was n ordinary day and it started off rather slowly. My classes were too slow and I was getting really impatient for no reason. Then my heart started beating so fast and I didn't know why but I suddenly felt nervousness in my system. 

My heart wouldn't stop its fast beating. When I got off the school bus it felt weird because my father and my brother weren't there to pick me up. They would usually pick me up and then we would go home together. I called my father's phone, he didn't pick up. It was getting late so I fetched my sister from school. My dad never came. We went to a friend's house because we didn't know where else to go. Then my mom called, she was crying. When we arrived in front of our apartment, I saw an ambulance leaving. We immediately went inside our apartment. In there, my mom was sobbing loudly. That's when I realized why I felt so uneasy earlier.

It all happened too fast and the next thing I know, I was in an airplane bounded for Manila, alone. It was my first time traveling alone so I was really worried and sad. I immediately took an entrance exam for Cavite National Science High School and luckily, I passed. My life was so different from before. It was a sudden change thatI had to cope up with immediately. Being a student in Cavite National Science High School is not easy. I've learned a lot of things in the school and I think I still have a lot to learn. Now, I am a junior. Time does fly by so fast. 

In our life one sudden event can change everything. It can change everything in just a snap of a finger. We have to treasure every moment with our loved ones because we wouldn't know what would happen today, tomorrow or in the future. We have to make everything, every moment worth it because having that regret in your heart after not being able to say what you want to say to your loved one, it is not pleasant. It is painful. There are also a lot of challenges in our life that would and have made me want to back down but always remember, there wouldn't be a rainbow without a little rain.

A Warrior in the Making. . . or Not.

"To be. . ." To be someone so strong is what I wish for. Someone like a warrior who would be able to do anything for her loved ones, and protect them with all her might. Someone who isn't scared or even wounded by the critisims, the hate, the painful words of people. But I truly believe that that someone can't be me.

I believe in the saying that "people who smile the brightest are always the most broken" because for me, it is the truth. They are the like warriors for me, trying to fight against themselves to not give up, to keep fighting till the end of this never-ending maze that is our life. They are the people who I wish to be.

We all had that certain time in our life where everything just seemed crumbling down to the floor. That time when you just feel like giving up just to end all the pain you are feeling in your heart. Whenever there is a problem that seems like a storm raining down only for me, trying to make me feel miserable, I try my hardest to stand on my own two feet and face it like a warrior. I faced tons of problems. I've heard people talk about me behind my back calling me names, I've heard bad things about me and I've heard people criticize me a lot. It breaks me inside but I try not to show it. I always try to fight that want of breaking down in front of them. You can call it pride but showing them their effect on me,it makes me feel so small, so weak. It is like I admitted that they won the war. I try not to show it, making them think that I won the war, but in the end I always lose. At some point everything that they said, every little criticsm, hurtful comments, painful words, they all get to me. They are like arrows slowly attacking my little heart. It takes a while before I can feel them seeping through the walls of heart, and when they finally reach the inside, I lose all my strength and I just turn into a crying mess.

I hate feeling weak. I hate admitting to myself that I am weak. I hate crying. I hate to admit to myself that I, again, lost a war. How can I be strong when I am so weak? How can I be someone who can protect her loved ones when I can't even protect myself? How can I be someone who wouldn't be wounded by the hate when they all affect me so much? How can a warrior when I am such a coward? I've always wanted to win but in the end I always lose.

I've always wanted to become a warrior. I wanted to fight the evil in myself who is lulling me to giving up. I always fought with all my might. I believe with those I am slowly becoming a warrior of my own. Whenever you are succeeding, there would always be those people who would pull you back down. They don't have anything better to do. I always try to fight the war with all I can. I always do. I always wanted to be a successful warrior. I've always tried to be one. I truly believe that one day, that strong and successful warrior could be me. ". . . or not to be"

She Wonders

She wonders if there could be a fun English class,

Where everyone would listen and no nonsense chat.

She wonders if there could be such a joyous class,

Where every student wouldn't yawn like a tired cat.

"What's the full story of Romeo and Juliet?

Is it all about love? Is it about hatred?

Will I be able to understand all of it?

Can I learn about that in my class?" She wondered.

She still wonders if there could be an English class,

In which she would understand what was being taught .

She still wonders if there could be such a class,

Where she would understand the verbals they have taught.

"Can there be a clear lesson about the tenses?

Would there be a lot of unusual spelling words?

How about the idiomatic expressions?

Will I be able to learn all that?" She wondered.

She finally reached this year and wondered no more.

It's like all of her doubts and thoughts were washed away.

Finally she's in the class she always yearned for.

That English Class that never fails to make her day.

Portable Personal Computer

A Laptop

One of the most important technology of our time is the portable personal computer, or simply, the laptop. It is something that all of us needs. It is something that even if you don't like it, even if you think you don't need it, you need it. 

Laptops are very popular worldwide. A lot of people prefer to have a laptop than a desktop because a laptop can do a lot of things. It can connect to the internet for internet access. It can also store up to thousands of photos, videos, and documents depending on the size of its hard drive. Though those things can also be done by the desktop , a laptop is better because it is portable.

As a high school student I always use my laptop especially when I have to do a homework. They are really lightweight and user-friendly. Even though there are new gadgets like the tablets and iPads, I still prefer using the laptop. They can do so much more than those. Whenever I would have to do a home reading report or something similar to that, I would always use my laptop because my other gadgets is not useful when it comes to those kinds of homeworks. There are also a lot of software that are exclusively made for laptops and I use those kinds of software and programs.

Even if you are someone who is working, a student, or just someone at home, a laptop is very important. It seems that it is a necessity for all. We are already living in the modern world, the technology world. Sooner or later there would be more gadgets that are faster, more elegant, etc. but as a person living in this modern world, one of the most important inventions of men in terms of technology is the laptop.

Ambiguity

Author's Note : This is the link for the original version of Romeo and Juliet's Act  5 Scene 3 http://nfs.sparknotes.com/romeojuliet/page_260.html

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Romeo enters with his boy Balthasar

Romeo rushed to the tomb where his lovely Juliet lies. He was there with only one thing in mind. He was there to kill himself because he is not stupid. He knows that whatever he does, it will not bring his wife back. He can't help but think about her all the time wishing to feel her warm hands beneath his. He wanted to hear her soft footsteps going towards him. He wanted her with him and the only way for that to happen is by killing himself. He asked his servant to leave him.

Balthasar exits

Romeo used all of the tools that he brought with him, with trembling hands, to open the tomb of the Capulets. He finally succeeded after a few trials and in there, he saw his lovely Juliet. 

Though she is now lifeless, she is still as breathtaking as before. My wife is lying so beautifully, so peacefully. I can't wait to see her in heaven. Romeo thought.

He went closer to her pale and cold body. He hugged her tight as if saying "I missed you so much". He kissed her cold yet soft lips. He then took the poison from his pocket. With one last look at Juliet, he closed his eyes and slowly brought the bottle to his mouth. He waited for the cold mouth of the bottle to touch his willing lips but it never came. Instead, he felt a pair of soft hands on his own, preventing him from bringing the bottle any closer to his lips. He opened his eyes and he was shocked with what he saw. His lovely bride was there staring at him with her bright pleading eyes asking him to stop. He froze as he looked at her beauty. Romeo couldn't speak, heck he couldn't even move. He was beyond astounded.

Am I already in heaven? Was the poison that strong that I am already dead? But I didn't even feel the poison going down my throat. I see my Juliet, oh, she is so charming. But why is she looking at me like that? He thought.

"Why are you trying to drink this poison my love?" Juliet asked but she got no response. "The plan worked. I am glad that Friar Lawrence was able to send you the letter. Oh my husband let's run away now far away from here!"

"Plan? What plan my wife? I am dead already. I am already in heaven with you. Run away? I am dead now remember? We are both dead." Romeo replied

"No silly we are not dead. This was part of our plan. You see Friar Lawrence. . ." She stopped because as if on cue a trembling Friar Lawrence entered the tomb but he was not alone, behind him stood Capulet and Paris.

Capulet and Paris stood there bewildered trying to analyze the scene uncovering before them. 

"What is that murderer doing near my daughter? Why is she awake? Isn't she dead? How can a dead person be brought back to life? That murderer, is he trying to steal her?" Capulet asked questions after another. He couldn't believe his eyes. "Friar, Paris, are you seeing what I am seeing?" He asked. No one answered because as soon as his senses went back to him, Paris ran to Romeo and punched him. 

"You have been exiled from Verona! You killed Tybalt you murderer! I will bring you to the prince!" He yelled.

"Stop this now!" Capulet shouted. "Care to explain to me what's going on here Friar Lawrence?" He asked Friar.

Before Friar Lawrence had the chance to speak, Juliet ran to Capulet. "It was all my fault my lord. Please forgive me. I really love Romeo. I married him. When he was exiled I was so depressed I didn't know what to do so I asked for Friar Lawrence's help. He gave me a potion that would make me seem dead for 48 hours so that my Romeo would be able to get me from this tomb and run away together. Oh father please let me love and have a happy life with Romeo. Oh please. Please father! Oh please for the love of a daughter!" Juliet cried while kneeling in front of Capulet. He thought about what happened. How his daughter pretended that she was dead, risking her life for his enemy's son. For a second he considered letting them love each other. For a second he considered making peace with the Montagues. He considered those for a second. But only for a second. He let his pride and his stubborn self take over him. He couldn't let his daughter marry his enemy's son. With that he told Paris "Kill him" right in front of her daughter. 

Juliet stood up and immediately ran to her husband before her father could get a hold of her. 

"Noooooooooooo!" Romeo yelled in despair because Juliet ran in front of him just before Paris' sword could reach his chest. The sword stabbed Juliet right in her heart. It went so deep that it passed through her chest. Before Romeo could even utter any other word, he collapsed with Juliet on the floor with lots of blood. Romeo was also stabbed by the same sword behind Juliet. 

Paris dropped to the floor scared and shocked of what he had done.

I killed two people at once with the same sword. He thought.

Capulet stood there realizing how awful his decision was. He ran to his daughter and hugged her bloody. He was sobbing. I am so stupid, so selfish, so stubborn. I did this to my daughter. Why did I let my anger get the best of me? Why? I am so sorry! My daughter, my Juliet, I am so sorry! He sobbed endlessly.

Friar Lawrence stood there watching the scene in front of him with tears in his eyes. He blamed himself for giving the potion to Juliet. He blamed himself for everything.

The next day

Everyone in Verona found out about what happened.

The dead bodies of Romeo and Juliet were buried inside a tomb of their own wherein their bodies are lying next to each other. There were in a tomb surrounded by beautiful flowers. 

Capulet apologized to Montague and the latter did the same. They became civilized to another and so did their families. Everyone talked about Romeo and Juliet's story.

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity."

-Gilda Radner

The End

                   Romeo and Juliet

Memories of a Father

"Back when I was a child

Before life removed all the innocence

My father would lift me high and

Dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'till I fell asleep

Then up the stairs he would carry me 

And I knew for sure 

I was loved"

It is Father's Day today, the day we get to thank and celebrate the day of that special someone that will own that special place in our hearts, our fathers. 

"If I could get another chance,

Another walk, another dance with him

I'd play a song 

that would never never end

How I'd love love love

To dance with my father again"

I can still vividly remember that day, our last father's day celebration with my papa. We were so happy and so close. Those memories would never get old.

~Flashback

June 21, 2009

It was Father's day and we, my mom, my siblings and I, greeted out papa first thing in the morning. We did our usual routine, eating breakfast then watching tv. As usual my papa would clean the house, he does that everyday, and we made an excuse that we would go buy groceries since he is still cleaning. My mom drove to a shop nearby where they sell all those father's day cards. We bought two cards, one from my mom and one from us, the children. We bought a cake and a really huge ice cream too. We also bought some groceries so that it wouldn't be so suspicious. We went back home  after paying for everything. We placed the groceries in the fridge along with the cake and ice cream. Then, my siblings and I ran to our room to prepare our gift to our papa. We were still young so we thought that one gift from the three of us is enough. We drew and wrote things on the card like "I LOVE YOU PAPA ❤". It was dinner time and we ate the cake and the ice cream that we brought for him. Then after that we did our chores. We went into their room afterwards. We went to our papa and gave him the card. He was really shocked and happy. He gave each of us this one huge comforting father kind of bear hug. His smile almost reached his ears but it definitely reached his eyes because of pure happiness. I saw little tears threatening to fall from his eyes, but he never let him fall ,not even after we kissed them goodnight and went to our bedrooms.

~End of Flashback

"Sometimes I'd listen outside her door and I'd hear how my mama cried for him.

I pray for her even more than me. I pray for her even more than me"

Since it's Father's day today, I can't help but think of those memories with my dad, whether they are happy or sad. Memories that those little moments that would make me cry faster than the speed of lightning. I know my mom is thinking about those memories too. I know those memories make her want to sob in a corner and cry her eyes out. I know because I would do that too.

"I know I'm praying for much to much, but could you send back the only man she loved"

I know that my papa is in good hands now. I know that God has better plans for us. Though God took my papa early, he didn't leave me with nothing. I have my mama, who is like a mom and a dad to us, my daddy cle, he is my mama's cousin, and my papa jojon, the husband of my aunt. My papa jojon and daddy cle treats us like their own children and I am really happy about that. My siblings really need a father figure and papa and daddy are doing a really great job with that.

"I know you don't do it usually, but dear lord she's dying to dance with my father again"

Years have passed and there are new days to come but days like these have a great amount of memories one would always think of. Sometimes, I can't help wishing for my dad to just come back so that I could hug him, glance at him and talk to him again. I guess I would never get rid of that feeling. The feeling of longing. The longing to have new memories of my father.

"Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dreamed."

            

Harry Potter

     Harry Potter is one of the few who I consider as my hero. It all started when my mother rented DVDs of the Harry Potter series available at that time. I think it was mid-Fall when I got to know Harry Potter. I found out a lot about him like when Harry was younger, he was neglected by the people who took him in. He didn't have a proper bedroom and they never gave him the proper treatment. He was bullied. He was a lonely child. 

     Unlike Harry Potter, I was not a loner. I had friends and I hung out with them a lot. You see, I was like the normal teenager. The kind of teenager that would always hang out with her group of friends that she spends so little time with her family. While watching the series, I found out that Harry Potter is longing to be loved. Even though there are people who care about him, he is still desiring to feel the love of his real parents. Then, realization finally hit me. I realized that there are so many children around the world, who are just like Harry Potter ,longing to be caressed with love by their mother's delicate and caring hands. They are all longing to be engulfed in the hug of a parent where they would feel warm and safe. There are so many children who are dying just to feel the love of a father. I realized that it was so ludicrous of me to just disregard my parents like that when I know that they love me with all their heart. I never felt so much luckier than what I felt at that time. I was luckier than the rich who never felt the love of his parents. Harry Potter made me realize that. 

     After watching the series, I balanced my time for both my friends and my family. I spent more time with my family and I got to know them better. I consider my parents as my heroes too. Without them I would be nothing. However, I wanted to share that even a fictional character, even someone like Harry Potter can change a person for the better. Harry Potter made me become a better person. A person who treasures her family  and loves them. A person that would be proud of her parents forever and always.