"Back when I was a child

Before life removed all the innocence

My father would lift me high and

Dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'till I fell asleep

Then up the stairs he would carry me 

And I knew for sure 

I was loved"

It is Father's Day today, the day we get to thank and celebrate the day of that special someone that will own that special place in our hearts, our fathers. 

"If I could get another chance,

Another walk, another dance with him

I'd play a song 

that would never never end

How I'd love love love

To dance with my father again"

I can still vividly remember that day, our last father's day celebration with my papa. We were so happy and so close. Those memories would never get old.

~Flashback

June 21, 2009

It was Father's day and we, my mom, my siblings and I, greeted out papa first thing in the morning. We did our usual routine, eating breakfast then watching tv. As usual my papa would clean the house, he does that everyday, and we made an excuse that we would go buy groceries since he is still cleaning. My mom drove to a shop nearby where they sell all those father's day cards. We bought two cards, one from my mom and one from us, the children. We bought a cake and a really huge ice cream too. We also bought some groceries so that it wouldn't be so suspicious. We went back home  after paying for everything. We placed the groceries in the fridge along with the cake and ice cream. Then, my siblings and I ran to our room to prepare our gift to our papa. We were still young so we thought that one gift from the three of us is enough. We drew and wrote things on the card like "I LOVE YOU PAPA ❤". It was dinner time and we ate the cake and the ice cream that we brought for him. Then after that we did our chores. We went into their room afterwards. We went to our papa and gave him the card. He was really shocked and happy. He gave each of us this one huge comforting father kind of bear hug. His smile almost reached his ears but it definitely reached his eyes because of pure happiness. I saw little tears threatening to fall from his eyes, but he never let him fall ,not even after we kissed them goodnight and went to our bedrooms.

~End of Flashback

"Sometimes I'd listen outside her door and I'd hear how my mama cried for him.

I pray for her even more than me. I pray for her even more than me"

Since it's Father's day today, I can't help but think of those memories with my dad, whether they are happy or sad. Memories that those little moments that would make me cry faster than the speed of lightning. I know my mom is thinking about those memories too. I know those memories make her want to sob in a corner and cry her eyes out. I know because I would do that too.

"I know I'm praying for much to much, but could you send back the only man she loved"

I know that my papa is in good hands now. I know that God has better plans for us. Though God took my papa early, he didn't leave me with nothing. I have my mama, who is like a mom and a dad to us, my daddy cle, he is my mama's cousin, and my papa jojon, the husband of my aunt. My papa jojon and daddy cle treats us like their own children and I am really happy about that. My siblings really need a father figure and papa and daddy are doing a really great job with that.

"I know you don't do it usually, but dear lord she's dying to dance with my father again"

Years have passed and there are new days to come but days like these have a great amount of memories one would always think of. Sometimes, I can't help wishing for my dad to just come back so that I could hug him, glance at him and talk to him again. I guess I would never get rid of that feeling. The feeling of longing. The longing to have new memories of my father.

"Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dreamed."

            

Harry Potter

     Harry Potter is one of the few who I consider as my hero. It all started when my mother rented DVDs of the Harry Potter series available at that time. I think it was mid-Fall when I got to know Harry Potter. I found out a lot about him like when Harry was younger, he was neglected by the people who took him in. He didn't have a proper bedroom and they never gave him the proper treatment. He was bullied. He was a lonely child. 

     Unlike Harry Potter, I was not a loner. I had friends and I hung out with them a lot. You see, I was like the normal teenager. The kind of teenager that would always hang out with her group of friends that she spends so little time with her family. While watching the series, I found out that Harry Potter is longing to be loved. Even though there are people who care about him, he is still desiring to feel the love of his real parents. Then, realization finally hit me. I realized that there are so many children around the world, who are just like Harry Potter ,longing to be caressed with love by their mother's delicate and caring hands. They are all longing to be engulfed in the hug of a parent where they would feel warm and safe. There are so many children who are dying just to feel the love of a father. I realized that it was so ludicrous of me to just disregard my parents like that when I know that they love me with all their heart. I never felt so much luckier than what I felt at that time. I was luckier than the rich who never felt the love of his parents. Harry Potter made me realize that. 

     After watching the series, I balanced my time for both my friends and my family. I spent more time with my family and I got to know them better. I consider my parents as my heroes too. Without them I would be nothing. However, I wanted to share that even a fictional character, even someone like Harry Potter can change a person for the better. Harry Potter made me become a better person. A person who treasures her family  and loves them. A person that would be proud of her parents forever and always.